THOSE THAT KNOW ME in real life that may or may not read these blogs may think it's kinda bitchy for me to use my past experiences for the public eye. However, with the enormous amount of "thank you omg I've been needing to hear that" & "you say to me what I can't say to myself" & "because of you, I don't feel alone" emails I've been receiving, I'm kinda justifying it. And ya know, I kinda am still anonymous & don't use names or even direct relations, so suck it.
I'm human too. I make mistakes and will own up to anything I've done. I'm never afraid to say I'm sorry. I think you should live your life that if someone were to call you out to the world, you wouldn't be embarassed about what they had to say. So just call me Taylor Swift of the Blog world.
Okay, okay get to your number 2 point already. My number 2 of "things I would go back in time and redo" is very simple. If a man isn't treating you how he should be, leave him.
Well duh right? What woman in her right mind would stay with a man who is mean to her? You'd be surprised how often it happens. You get stuck in the mentality that the highs of the relationship outweigh the lows. When it's bad, you remember how it is when it's good so you justify the abuse just longing for it to get good again because once it does, it will stay that way. NO. It doesn't. You're wrong. It doesn't matter what kind of abuse you deal with. Whether it be physical, emotional, or mental, there is some other guy out there that won't make you put up with his shit. YOU. ARE. A. PRINCESS. And princesses don't take shit.
Love is blind and this post is kinda all over the place. I did this in high school, like all those years of my life when I put up with shit because of love. Or what I thought love was. Or what I even thought love could be. Do you know what love is at 16? A question I've always entertained and maybe this is a good future post but if you loved someone, and your love ended for whatever reason... was it ever true love at all? Technically I believe I have loved 3 times in my life, but after it all I've learned to never let your happiness depends on something you may lose.
I will say the harsh words and bullshit I put up with really did change me. I have no tolerance and I demand respect because I'll give you the same back. I'm one of those annoying people who try to "look at the bright side of things." I know, what a crock of shit. @LifeofaPrincess, HOW can I see the good in this breakup, leaving someone my heart desires JUST BECAUSE he isn't good to me 24/7? How can I live without him? I'll tell him I'm done, and then two hours later I'm calling to say I'M SORRY?? You quit that. For any girl out there, who has dealt with assholes or who may be currently dealing with one... leave him. Get on your own two feet. He is not treating you as the Princess that you are.
How do I know this you ask? How do I know it's possible and you'll become better because of it? Because I have been there. I have done that. Walked away. Kept my dignity. Treated people how they should be and didn't try to find revenge. I guess it's kinda contradictory because this post is supposed to be about what I would change. I guess I wouldn't change that part of my life because I wouldn't be who I am now. So number 2 can be to change the fact I didn't slap that person across the face and leave sooner to move on to a man who knows my worth. You should do the same.
"Run for your life my love, run and don't give up. All that you are, all that you want. Run for your life right now. And if you dont know how, go back a few, take all that's true, leave all thats burned behind. Just run for your life." - The Fray
xo,
-A
