Sunday, October 7, 2012

I Didn't Think Of You.

I woke up today and it was storming. I didn't think of you. The dog was snuggled up next to me doing that funny kick thing she does with her leg, kinda like the same flinch you would always do. I didn't think of you. The storm was bad - I mean booming thunder and lightning at 7am! I was scared. I called my best friend and she said it was storming where she was at too. I didn't think of you.

It was a friends birthday today. I put on those pair of jeans you always loved and slipped on the pair of closed toe shoes you got me for Christmas that time because it was a little cold out. I didn't think of you. We went to this quiet little irish bar with dark green painted walls. I ordered the hummus. Green was your favorite color. I didn't think of you. We ordered mimosas and the girl next to me accidentally spilled hers all over the table, but I wasn't reminded of that time I tipped over my glass of champagne on our third date. I wasn't reminded at all. I didn't think of you.

I came home, washed my face, and went for a jog. I passed by a cute couple walking their black lab. His tail was wagging and his eyes, smiling. It was so strange because he looked just like your dog. But even though I knew that, I still didn't think of you. I finished the 2 mile run feeling refreshed and poured myself a tall glass of milk. You thought it was weird I loved milk. I drank it and put the glass in the dishwasher. I didn't think of you. The remaining part of the day was spent in my thoughts about what to plan for my family for Thanksgiving and presents for Christmas. I always made you really creative presents. But even then, I didn't think of you.

I climbed into bed and it was storming again. My heart was eased. I said my prayers and pulled up the covers - thankful for this life. Thankful for where I've been lead. Thankful for who I am. Then it finally hit me:

The only time I thought of you today was when I realized I hadn't thought about you at all.